GRENDEL AND ME (0909)
Bernie Moore

I was talking to Grendel the other day, and the discussion was about the paucity of chipmunks and other cat sized game upon which he practices his combat skills.
“Do you remember the folk song about the missing flowers?” he queried.
“Where Have all the Flowers Gone?” I asked.
“Yeah, that’s the one. How did it go?”
“Well. I think I can summarize it without subjecting your sensitive ears to my blaring basso.”
Where have all the flowers gone?... Girls have picked them every one…Where have all the young girls gone?... Taken husbands every one... Where have all the young men gone?... Gone for soldiers every one... Where have all the soldiers gone?... Gone to graveyards every one... Where have all the graveyards gone?... Covered with flowers every one. When will they ever learn?Pete Seeger
“Yeah, that’s the one.”“You know, it makes me wonder,” He pensed. (figure it out; it’s not in the dictionary.)“Where have all the chipmunks gone?”

I thought about it awhile. Our hunting trips have been barren for quite a while. It sort of reminded me of Beowulf when our hero tracks down the dragon that is about to destroy him. He comes upon a deserted castle with its cellars full of gold and treasures, taken over by the dragon when the last of its race succumbed in honorable combat. Honor was served but the race became extinct.The silent castle bore nothing but the sleeping dragon who was content with his treasures and would have remained so for eons had it not been for some fool servant who stole a bejeweled cup for his angry master. When the dragon found this bit of his treasure gone he began warring on Man, thus prompting the aging Beowulf to save his people one last time. They both won; they both lost, and monster and hero passed into mythical history.
All quests must end, and the ending too often is tragic, but some are just melancholy as in the case of the hero who outlives his need. Grendel has rid the neighborhood of cute little vermin, and he wanders his turf in search of his raison’d’etre, a pointless quest but to no avail, a Don Quixote without even a windmill to tilt at.
If there is a heroic quality in each of us it is in the pursuits of our youthful goals. The struggles, anxieties, and (if you please) the blood sweat and tears of our lives define who we are: some take on dragons, some the niches, small and large of what has to be done to create a viable society. There comes a time when you put down the sword or pass it on to a youth, full of dreams and aspirations.
I do not think Grendel is saddened by his success; he is actively vigilant, prowling on the end of a leash, searching under leaves, peering into dark crevasse, and scenting the air for opportunity. He remains diligent in spite of his barren landscape.
It is difficult to strive without adversaries, whatever form they take, but he does so not because of some learned value, but because he is hard wired to. Still, I have to admire his tenacity. He teaches by example.I dare say that whatever medals are due me from my life are all in; there will be no more. My days are filled with indulgences only dreamed of while I struggled through the decades. My chipmunks are gone. The race is won or lost; it really doesn’t matter any more. I feel like I’ve just finished a 10 k race, tired but elated from the exertion. When are we more alive then after a great effort?
At the end of a soirée we return to the house and he has a tuna or a salmon snack, (he detests chicken and other fowl) and then on to a well earned nap prefaced by a tongue washing and a good smooching from his page.
Life is good. What is sweeter than a hot bath and a well earned rest?